Setting out to Stand on a Mountain...

Have I said yet, how much this Ladies Bible study seems to know exactly what's going on in my life? Beth Moore, did you plant a camera or bug in my house? God is more and more amazing to me all the time. He's sneaky, I'll tell ya! It has taken me 4 days of writing and editing to finally publish this post. Im figuring either God had more to show me that i wasn't seeing, or He knew that someone else would need it on this day...or Both! He does know best!

We are so quick to play spiritual when everything is going smoothly aren't we? Praise the Lord, it's a blessed day! We're on top of the world! GOD IS GOOD! And sometimes we can't even get it thru the gritting of our teeth when things are rough. We hold hope thru tears and praise Him, trusting this is only for a season. But when we are smack in the middle of lowest point in that valley...sometimes we forget that He's still with us. God hasn't fallen asleep at the last stop...He hasn't ran off to the next leg of the race without us either. He's there...even when we can't seem to find Him.

Psalm 125:1
"They that trust in the LORD shall be as mount Zion, which cannot be removed, but abideth for ever."

Psalm 30:6,7
"And in my prosperity I said, I shall never be moved.
LORD, by thy favour thou hast made my mountain to stand strong: thou didst hide thy face, and I was troubled."

There have been moments in my life over the years where sometimes I just forgot that I needed God. When I forgot, He was sure there to remind me. But I didn't always find Him at first. Sometimes I felt He was too busy with everyone else or just not interested in me because maybe I don't deserve His attention. Even now, I struggle with this now and then. I admit just in the past year There have been many moments that I wanted to ask why I wasn't feeling Him. Where did He go? What happened to this never leaving or forsaking business??? But once again my Bible study has given me a slap to wake me up. God's promises are true. I believe that with all my heart. I know some promises are yet to be fulfilled here on earth and will be heavenly promises. But we should rely whole heartedly on the words our Father says to us. Last week we learned that God is for us...He's on our side, and He's our strength. If GOD is for us then WHO can be against us?! But don't we feel sometimes like EVERYONE & EVERYTHING is against us? Today the study discusses Psalm 125. It tells us that those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion...we CANNOT be moved!

an excerpt from our Study Workbook...
"God is with us and for us even when is face and favor seem hidden. Mountain-like security only comes from trusting God, not what He's done for or given us, however glorious and eternal those things may be...The difference between trusting God and trusting what God has done is a fine line we can easily trip over ..."

Boy does that ring true!? We are currently studying faith in our Young Adult class. I think in today's world Christians, no matter how strongly they believe in Christ and have faith in His salvation, we can often struggle with faith in his hand on our lives. Its so easy when we are on the Mountain tops...but will we remain with our eyes looking up when we are traveling thru the valley? Im gonna stop this post now, but there will be more on this subject to follow. Its something that comes about in several seasons of our lives and something to keep building on. So here is one of the songs Dave and I sing that I just felt was totally fit for this post and the heartsong of my day.



"Mountain Of God"

Thought that I was all alone
Broken and afraid
But You were there with me
Yes, You were there with me

And I didn't even know
That I had lost my way
But You were there with me
Yes, You were there with me

'Til You opened up my eyes
I never knew
That I couldn't ever make it
Without You

Even though the journey's long
And I know the road is hard
Well, the One who's gone before me
He will help me carry on
After all that I've been through
Now I realize the truth
That I must go through the valley
To stand upon the mountain of God

As I travel on the road
That You have lead me down
You are here with me
Yes, You are here with me
I have need for nothing more
Oh, now that I have found
That You are here with me
Yes, You are here with me

I confess from time to time
I lose my way
But You are always there
To bring me back again

Sometimes I think of where it is I've come from
And the things I've left behind
But of all I've had, what I possessed
Nothing can quite compare
With what's in front of me
With what's in front of me

Who are these CP's I so often talk about???

When we first moved back to OH from TX, I was very lonely for friendship. Not that I didn't still have friends from my life in OH, but things were different. People grow up, they grow apart, they have their own lives. I felt alot like an outsider and sometimes I still do. My husband was working full time and I was pregnant with no car at home. Then came baby...My sweet little Tater Tot! He kept me occupied and really, I didn't have much time for friends then. As he got a little older and a little less needy, I got lonelier. We had friends and acquaintances at church, but at that time we didn't really spend time outside church with them. Its true that sometimes going home is the hardest place to go. Things are great now and Im so thankful for that, but at a time I pleaded with God for friendships, He answered in a way I never imagined. I joined a little online community called Cafemom...which is no longer little at all-its massive! Seems there are alot of moms out there who are lonely! Especially the SAHM's! (For those of you who don't know internet lingo, an SAHM is a Stay at home mom) Since I had asked the Lord specifically for friends that would not only be trustworthy, but would help me in my spiritual walk, he led me to join some Christian groups on the site. I found many many friends that even though Im no longer on Cafemom, I still keep in touch with. I love them! I have so many, It would take me 2 days to list them! And I pray for each and every one of these women that have touched my life. They ROCK! But there are the CP's! Crazy Princesses(daughters of the King!) Maybe a bit cheesy, but lucky for us, we like cheese! =) This is my very close knit group of sisters. We had our own little private group there and it has since moved to Facebook. Most of us have left Cafemom-cause guess what...you put a million women in a pot and drama starts to boil over! lol Imagine that! My CP's and I are all Christians, all mothers, all wives, and all in need of sisterhood. Many of us have had the opportunity to meet in person. There are 10(including me) of us, I have met 4 of them in person. Husbands too. These women to me are the greatest answer to prayer as far as friends that I could have possibly asked for. How He knew what I needed is beyond me, but Im sooo blessed! So im going to introduce them to you one by one. I tried to make these short, but in all truth, they all deserve their own blog page. Just bare with me =)


The first that I met is Destiny...Des...she lives in San Antonio-how convenient is that!? This woman is so fun, so crazy and a true mom in every sense of the word. She amazes me at the love she has for her kiddos. Her faith, her prayers...she touched me so much when we met and before we parted ways for the day and then for the trip she prayed for me and with me. She loves just about everyone and everything she comes in contact with and she shows it! She loves her hubby, her parents, anyone who will let her love them and even those that dont let her! lol Her heart is THIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSS BIGGGGGGGG(arms stretched out far as they go) I love her so much! I can't wait to get to SA and see her again! I really think all us CP's should move to a cul de sac in SA and stay there forever...I mean TX is God's country =) She has 3 munchkins (2B, 1G)


CP #2, Our Mik! She could very well be the leader of the pack if we were a gang. LOL She has amazing leadership skills, so much talent in design, singing, writing...Her kids are her passion...homeschooling is her current career and I dont think she'd have it any other way right now. She's beautiful! She is a spit-fire and tells it like it is, which we all know I LOVE! Organized the first big meet among 4 of us in Cinci, and I was soooo blessed to get to spend a few days with her and her hubby. They are an awesome couple, doing whatever God would have them to do for His glory! (3 Boys for her)


And now we move to Diana. She is the creative mastermind in our group. The entrepreneur...the scrapbooker...the New Yorker =) And from what I can remember she hates to be called Diane, so don't do it! lol She is one of my weight loss inspirations! This girl has lost 100lbs on Weight Watchers! She is dedicated to her 2 little princesses and to her family in general. She takes others in when there is a need and inspires us all the put family high on the list of priorities, despite the battle! LOVE HER! (2G's)


Next I'll introduce Laura, sweet Laura! I don't think there is a woman Ive met recently with a more meek spirit than Miss Laura! She is shy and quiet and probably takes on more than any woman should, but all the while she praises the Lord! She is a true prayer warrior and one who truly seeks the Holy Spirit with her whole heart! I get so excited every time over the last few years that Laura has come out of her shell more. She has truly opened herself up into our sisterhood and Im so gratefull to call her my sister in Christ! As far as her addition to our group, she has to be one of the biggest encouragers we could ask for! We all need encouragement and Laura can bring it! (And God love her she has 5 BOYS!)


Theresa...aka T! Simply put...CRAZY! hehe This girl keeps us cracking up and on our toes and she loves to joke and play and have fun. I was shocked when we all met at how soft spoken and shy she was at first. Never would have guessed that in a million years! She is a strong woman with strong values in following her leaders...as far as God, then husband. She is in school and learning more and more about the Bible everyday. She is a mom that gets up super early(like before I ever see the clock) to go work out(oh how I need that inspiration) before classes. She would do ANYTHING to protect her children. She sacrifices all the time for the sake of her family.(1G, 2B, 1SD)


Beckie (My Becks) This prayer warrior is by far my favorite version of Snow White ever! Yes that's right...this fabulous woman has given birth to 7 little punkins! And you see God in them because of the God they have seen thru her. It lights up my days to hear stories of how her kiddos fight the temptations of this world so they can be a light to others! She is certainly training them up in the way they should go. And her prayers...this woman can pray! I sure wish I had that gift. Im more of a scream and yell and cry and plead and laugh and talk to God like the regular old dork that I am. Becky gets in there and the prayers and tears and words just flow up to heaven as if its Christ truly speaking to the Father for her. I love her soooo much! She has blessed my life beyond measure! ok, lets see if I can get the kid count right! (4B's, 3G's)


Brie...aka MemawBrie, but my MamaBrie...she prides herself in the name of Memaw! Her grandbabies are her smile =) She is such a good one too! She is like My Mama of the group, probably to some of the others too. I am so blessed by her strength and her sharing with us the things that maybe she has already had to deal with in life and are now coming up in ours. She is one to not complain and sometimes holds back what she needs in her own life to help us or someone else in their struggles. She deserves so many roses! I just want to hug her so bad! Someday...someday. (3B's, 1G)


Emi...dearest Emi, Im a dope and thought I counted right...Emi is our Mulan! She is gorgeous and perky and sweet and lucky enough to have lived close to Laura for a short while. We were all so jealous they got to be together! She is constantly lifting us each up and I desperately long for the day that we all get to meet her an her cuties. She has a boy and a girl and they are AAAADOOOORRRRABLE!She has moved around alot since we met her and luckily we get to be with her each step of her journey. She is a true prayer warrior as and is fervently lifting us up when we request. She also has a comforting spirit that not many possess in this world. Im soooo blessed to have Mulan as my friend! You can smack me now for not having you on there when I edited, Im have problems when I dont use my fingers to count you all! Thank you


Last, but not least is Kara...thats pronounced Kaahhh-ruhhhh. Just pretend your Asian, you'll get it. ;) Greg that was for you buddy! Kara and I met and found all these weird things about each other that were eerily similar. I often wondered if we were separated at birth. Unfortunately for me she got to be the skinny twin. ;p She is probably what I'd say is my soul sister on earth. She's ridiculously OCD and she doesn't have my passion for purses and shopping, and for some odd reason she enjoys jumping out of planes, but there is soooo much more that makes her totally ROCK! Our hubbies get along fabulously as well. Of course we both married huge goofballs that are souled out for Jesus, so that helps. Dave is my Sarcastic Texan, Greg is her Silly Asian (or as he has named himself-Secret Asian Man). We both have 2 boys, we both grew up in Ohio(ughh), We both went to Bible College, we both married our best friends, we both hate dirt, Love our vacuums, love singing, love Stephen King, and want nothing but to serve our Lord, we also both want to adopt Korean girls. lol ...ok I could go on all day. Im so blessed for my wonderful sister EVEN IF she can eat a whole cake and it not go to her hips! JERK. lol Someday I will get her stubborn booty on a trip to Texas! BFF's!

So there you have it...my besties, my CP's! Its no longer a mystery! Don't you wish you had your own secret society of crazy women? lol Its ok, be jealous! We pray for each other, laugh with each other, talk about things we can't talk to anyone else about and we truly throw ourselves down on our faces at the feet of God whenever one of us is in need of divine intervention. I'm sooo blessed and proud of my CP's!

Me...Transparant

"I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you." Isaiah 41:13

"For God hath not given us a spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7

The last couple of years have been a true struggle with my health. When I first started going to the doctor for my severe anemia and the knots that were coming up under my arms and on my neck the dr told me he thought I had lymphoma. I was so scared. I mean, I'm too young for that, I had a 2 year old and an 8 year old, I couldn't have cancer. Thank the Lord he was wrong about that. I have severe pain from these knots, but nothing cancerous about them. I can live with that. However, the blood issue has been a constant struggle. My hematologist at my first consult told me he was shocked I hadn't developed lukemia and a whole list of things that didn't sound pleasant. Thanks for the pep talk, Doc! I'm so vitamin deficient that I'm now on iron transfusions and B-12 shots, chewable vitamins so they will be absorbed better, and still have to go to a nutrition specialist to try and resolve the rest of my deficiencies. I've had severe muscular pain for a long time and been tested for what seems like every disease out there. I've been to a rheumotologist who informed me that he was pretty sure what I had was Cushing's disease and what it involved. Holy Crap! Its some scary stuff! I would have had to have had brain surgery or chemo and radiation, or all that together if it had been that. Praise the Lord prayers are working and it wasn't Cushing's. However, that round of tests with the doctor and the things going on in my body really made me crazy...I'm talking straightjacket in a white padded room crazy. Dr's really shouldn't be able to tell you they 'think' you have something. They should just say they are gonna run some tests and we will see what they say. For over a month of testing I was having severe panic attacks. I wouldn't sleep, but maybe an hour or 2 in a 24 hour period and that wasn't usually consecutive. I would fall asleep and no sooner than I shut my eyes I'd wake up gasping for air, my heart pounding out of my chest, beating sooo fast and painful. I thought I was having a heart attack the first time. Accept I was cold and not sweaty and once I started deep breathing I was totally fine. It was so scary. This happened multiple times a week. I was a stressed out mess. I neglected my family. All I thought about was how I couldn't die and leave my kids behind, while at the same time I wasn't acting like I was living now with them. I cried so much. My relationship with God was suffering. Even for a couple weeks after the Cushing's was ruled out I was still having attacks because even still, they can't tell me what's wrong with my muscles and the problems involved. Fortunately its looking like PCOS and another treatable thing, but still not sure. I'm so thankful for good friends and my wonderful husband. I don't know how Id have made it out of those panic attacks without them. My 2 biggest sources of relief late at nite...My Maria...a dear sweet friend who knows exactly what I'm going thru and would talk to me just to keep me sane even if it was 3am. And Mikayla...one of my CP's that on the nite of what would be my last official panic attack talked me thru it and led me back to my Savior. Thank you so much my friends! You really have no idea how much you helped me. Thank you to my hubbalicious for not giving up on your insane wife! I love you and appreciate you so much. You are truly my best friend in the whole world! Thank you to my sons who are the greatest kids in the world and for loving your mom even when I wasn't deserving of a #1 mom coffee mug.
No I don't know what's to come and I'll admit, I still have my scared moments wondering what exactly is going on in my broken body, but as my sweet friend Amanda sang yesterday and was such a comfort to my spirit..."Many things about tomorrow, I don't seem to understand; But I know Who holds tomorrow, And I know Who holds my hand."

I'm so grateful for the Bible Study we are going thru right now and my continued growth in my relationship with my beautiful Savior! Where would I be without Christ holding my hand? I know God isn't finished with me yet. He has called me to His work and He promises where He begins a work in us He will be faithful to complete it. I trust Him! He hadn't let me down yet! I will live my life the rest of my days 'living' despite my trials. I have power, love, and a sound mind!


I don't know about tomorrow,
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from it's sunshine,
For it's skies may turn to gray.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said,
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.

Refrain
Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.

Ev'ry step is getting brighter,
As the golden stairs I climb;
Ev'ry burden's getting lighter;
Ev'ry cloud is silver lined.
There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eyes,
At the ending of the rainbow,
Where the mountains touch the sky.

Refrain
Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.

I don't know about tomorrow,
It may bring me poverty;
But the One Who feeds the sparrow,
Is the One Who stands by me.
And the path that be my portion,
May be through the flame or flood,
But His presence goes before me,
And I'm covered with His blood.

Refrain
Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.

Worth waiting for...

I don't have alot to say today. I was just thinking about how when I was younger everyone was saying how the time was soon coming for Christ's return to bring His church home and praying it would be soon. I was saved, but my human self didn't want Him to return too quickly. I wanted to get married, have kids, grandkids, live an exciting life, travel, do really cool things first. But as I've gotten older and have seen so much hurt in this world, and all the devastation going on today, I have changed my heart and joined the others in that prayer. I long for that day to hear the trumpets in the air. The day when the saints will rise to meet Him in the clouds! I pray I get to see it in my lifetime. How exciting would that be! Sure I still want those earthly things, my flesh still wants to be a grandma someday. But I long for no more tears...just joy and praising the Lord forever! I just pray we can reach more souls that haven't heard of His grace before He comes. Gotta get out there and GO!

This song touched me today...
Hillsong, You Hold Me Now

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8vTGuB-eQkA#watch-main-area

On that day when I see
All that You have for me
When I see You face to face
There surrounded by Your grace

All my fear is swept away
In the light of your embrace
When Your love is all I need
And forever I am free

Where the streets are made of gold
In Your presence healed and whole
Let the songs of heaven rise to you alone

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now,
You hold me now

In this life I will stand
Through my joy and my pain
Knowing there's a greater day
There's a hope that never fails

When Your name is lifted high
And forever praises rise
For the glory of Your Name
I'm believing for the day

When the wars and violence cease
All creation lives in peace
Let the songs of heaven rise to you alone

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness, no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now,
You hold me now

For eternity
All my heart will give
All the glory to Your name

For eternity
All my heart will give
All the glory to Your name

For eternity
All my heart will give
All the glory to Your name

For eternity
All my heart will give
All the glory to Your name

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now,
You hold me now

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now,
You hold me now

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now,
You hold me now

Do you ever feel like you're in exile?

Jeremiah 29:4-7

4Thus saith the LORD of hosts, the God of Israel, unto all that are carried away captives, whom I have caused to be carried away from Jerusalem unto Babylon;

5Build ye houses, and dwell in them; and plant gardens, and eat the fruit of them;

6Take ye wives, and beget sons and daughters; and take wives for your sons, and give your daughters to husbands, that they may bear sons and daughters; that ye may be increased there, and not diminished.

7And seek the peace of the city whither I have caused you to be carried away captives, and pray unto the LORD for it: for in the peace thereof shall ye have peace.

Ive lived in the little city of Franklin, Ohio for most of my life. And for most of my life I've wanted out of this city. As a child I dreamed of living ANYWHERE on earth that had more than 100,000 people. My frustrations of Ohio have grown over the last few years. You see, I did leave for a while. I spent 4 years in the great state of Texas! 3 of them in Arlington, right between 2 huge cities-Dallas and Fort Worth; and 1 year in what I feel is probably the greatest city in America, San Antonio! I LOVED Texas, even when things were tough. I love city life. I love the people. It seems people are just more considerate there than they are here. There are going to be inconsiderate or cold people wherever you go, but it seems to be overflowing where I live now. And Ive shut this city out of my heart. But I've been very wrong in doing that.
When we first moved here we were excited to see what God had in store. Especially since every single door in TX had been slammed in our faces and the only open window seemed to leads us here. After a short while of being here, we wondered if we had made a mistake. We knew it had been so clear to come, but we sure didn't know our purpose. And I think in a way we have struggled with that for all of the almost 5 years we've been back. Sure I have family here, but besides my sister and my parents, I don't really see anyone else. We all have our 'grown-up' lives now. We live differently. Our family is our church. We look forward to seeing our 'family' every Sunday and Wednesday, despite what some may consider a crazy schedule! My hubbalicious has to be at the church by 8:15 on Sunday mornings to prepare music for the day since he works an outside job all week. We are there late because he almost every Sunday has to count the offering and if he isn't counting he's locking up. We have our own class, sing in the choir, work in the nursery, and I even surrendered to go out of my comfort zone last year and now teach TNT (tots in training) atleast once a month. We attend youth activities now and then and even chaperone sometimes. We have adult activities, ladie's functions, men's breakfasts...We are SUPER busy all the time! Yet still if I could move my whole church with me, I'd move out of this town without blinking an eye. So I've come to the conclusion (I must be hardheaded for it to have taken this long) that our purpose here is our church. God has a plan for us to be here and despite it not being the path I'd have chosen on my own, if its His will, then this is where I want to be until he moves me. Its funny cause one of my favorite songs, states just that, and I never got it in this way. =) As the verses about the exiled say...I need to pray for peace(of God) and prosperity for the city He has brought me to. I must make my life here and serve here for as long as He would have me here. For if I can't serve and love the people of Franklin, Ohio...then how can I expect to serve at my greatest potential and as God would have me to, to the people of San Antonio, or my heart's mission in Tanzania? I have to love HERE, before He will send me THERE. So here I am, waiting, standing, serving...and I've made my choice, and this is where I'll stand until He moves me on!

Here is my heart song for today...I Will Listen (Twila Paris)


If you have never heard it, I urge you too google it and listen...I couldn't get the popup link to work.


Hard as it seems
Standing in dreams
Where is the dreamer now
Wonder if I
Wanted to try
Would I remember how
I don't know the way to go from here
But I know I have made my choice
And this is where I stand
Until He moves me on

And I will listen to His voice
This is the faith
Patience to wait
When there is nothing clear
Nothing to see
Still we believe
Jesus is very near
I can not imagine what will come
But I've already made my choice
And this is where I stand
Until He moves me on

And I will listen to His voice
Could it be that He is only waiting there to see
If I will learn to love the dreams
that He has dreamed for me
Can't imagine what the future holds
But I've already made my choice
And this is where I stand
Until He moves me on
And I will listen to His voice

What are my lips singing?

One thing discussed in last nite's study was about the words we sing. Do we really feel and understand the words being sung when we are in praise and worship? Or do they just come out with no feeling and no truth behind them? Do we mean it??? I want to become that person that thinks about what Im singing and to pray that the words become true in me. Some songs have affected me and I feel them every time I sing them. But some songs just come out. I dont really hear them. I dont feel them. I want that to change...I am making it a goal to think about every word of every song that comes off my lips to the Lord! I don't want them to be in vain.

With tear filled eyes I will lift up these words to the Lord today...because really-Who am I, that HE would be mindful of me???

God With Us – Mercy Me

Who are we, that You would be mindful of us?
What do You see, that's worth looking our way?
We are free, in ways that we never should be.
Sweet release, from the grip of these chains.
Like hinges straining from the weight, my heart no longer can keep from singing.

[chorus]
All that is within me cries.
For You alone be glorified Emmanuel, God with us.
My heart sings a brand new song.
The debt is paid these chains are gone.
Emmanuel, God with us.

Lord You know, our hearts don't deserve Your glory.
Still You show, a love we cannot afford.
Like hinges straining from the weight, my heart no longer can keep from singing.

[chorus]
All that is within me cries.
For You alone be glorified Emmanuel, God with us.
My heart sings a brand new song.
The debt is paid these chains are gone.
Emmanuel, God with us.

Such a tiny offering, compared to Calvary, nevertheless we lay it at your feet.
Such a tiny offering, compared to Calvary, nevertheless we lay this at your feet.

[chorus]
All that is within me cries.
For You alone be glorified Emmanuel, God with us.
My heart sings a brand new song.
My debt is paid these chains are gone.
Emmanuel, God with us.

Finding my heartsong...

Yesterday I created this blog with the full intention of it being an outlet for my anger...a venting fest if you will. To come and anonymously say whatever was in my head without people knowing it was me and in turn embarrassing my husband or making my own reputation be that of a crazy, mad woman. I'm in serious need of anger management. However, last week I started a ladies Bible study with the women of my church. Its Beth Moore's Stepping Up---The Psalms of Ascent. Every single part of this study has been working on my heart and working on the issues in my heart. Last night was almost eerie the way God was moving. The study was talking about an outlet...using song or psalms as your outlet thru all things. An outlet! Exactly what I named this blog, before ever going to the study! I knew God was creating a new work in me...a change in my 'outlet'. So from this day forward, my outlet will be song. And my 'OUTLET' will be open to whoever needs it that day. Im looking for my heartsong...the song that remains in my heart thru all things, that I can sing to the Lord in times of praise, joy, confusion, sorrow...

So this is where I will come, whenever I need an outlet. I'll post songs, prayers, my heartfelt and sincere feelings. Even when they are full of sorrow and tears and surely when they are full of joy and praise. Feel free to come here and join with me in your prayers, your thoughts, your sorrows, and of course your joys and thankfulness! Here we go!