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Wednesday, February 17, 2010



My friend Aimz posted an old journal of hers from cafemom today. It sent me looking at some of my old ones. I went searching for this one in particular because last nite the snow was very similar to this and it seems my spirit is in a very similar place right now as it was when I wrote this back in November 2007. This journal was written after the crazy nite we went to the midnite Black Friday sale at Jeffersonville outlets(which we will never do again). ;) So since I've had a bit of writer's block and spiritual battle...I hope you can get something out of this like I did!



Living in the Midwest there is one thing we don't go without in any given year-snow. You either love it or hate it. Well I'd say I love it if it only landed on roof tops and grass or areas you didnt have to walk or drive on. So I guess I'm not much of a snow lover cause that would only happen by an act of God. But as I sit here contemplating all the things going on in our lives right now, questioning, praying, wondering of our future...I am reminded of the one really cool thing about my crazy outlet shopping experience Thursday nite.

Its 10pm, we are in line to wait out what will be a very cold waste of my time. Its been sleeting, but now its snow. Its not just any snow though-it was a snow that I've never in my life experienced. It was BEAUTIFUL! Each flake was designed and dropping down like shiny crystals. It was like God was sitting above us and delicately cutting out each individual flake-like we used to make when we were kids-but gorgeous! They were falling on our gloves, our heads, our shirts...they were sooo pretty. I wish I could show you. If i hadnt downsized my purse for the shopping trip-I would have had my camera dang it! So there is my one blessing out of that awful nitemare of crazy shoppers! lol And thinking about it now is helping me see God's power. He has a design for each of our lives. Each one He delicately cuts out and each one is different. I have to have patience for my questions, my thoughts...I know this. He is designing a beautiful future for my little family. I know when I get my answers I will again be in awe of Him, His design, His ultimate wisdom.

Jeremiah 18:1-4
1 This is the word that came to Jeremiah from the LORD : 2 "Go down to the potter's house, and there I will give you my message." 3 So I went down to the potter's house, and I saw him working at the wheel. 4 But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to him.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Stagnant...




I've been standing in stagnant water for a while. I've had such a hard time focusing lately and in turn had a hard time with my Bible Studies, blogging, a lot of things. I'm not really sure why! I have so much to be excited about. I haven't felt well, terrible (probably worst of my life) sinus infection for going on 6 weeks now. But I still don't know why I'm having such issues. I think I'm honestly a little discouraged and tired. Dave won a contest that will give us $1000 for our Africa trip. Im thrilled! What a huge addition to our account! But here I sit wondering why so many of my friends can raise the funds for a mission trip in a matter of weeks and its taken Dave and I over a year and we aren't even at 50%. I know there is a reason. I know my health needed taken care of and things happened where we wouldn't have been able to go when originally planned...I just wish for once I could see the future. Winter has me down and extremely burnt out on OH too. I'm dying for the opportunity to move back to TX. Although I can't see ever leaving our church. Can we just pick up and move everyone? I think I just need the Lord to come take me by the hand and take me for a nice walk so we can chat. I need a pick me up. Pray for me...for open heart and mind...for focus! For no headache!