Life is short...

Last night, in the blink of an eye, a great man of God met His Savior face to face. Charles Roe went 'home'. Now I wasn't extremely close to the Roe family. But his wife has been my son's teacher for years and she truly loves those kids and you can tell that Charles loves his wife! I've never handled death well. I'm a Christian, and although I rejoice in knowing loved ones have gone on to be with the Lord, I have a hard time with the human side of the loss in me. No matter who it is. I just shook this man's hand and asked how he was doing 24 hours earlier. And now all I can think about is how on Memorial Sunday, a week ago, he stood praising the Lord for his 60 YEARS of marriage! What an AMAZING testimony! I think about how it must be to be separated from your partner of 60 years so suddenly. I get a renewed sense of understanding at how after almost 6 years now, my grandmother still cries daily over the loss of my sweet grandpa. Life is short...on this earth, anyways. I have a feeling of need to hold closer to the ones I love and a need to see others accept Christ so that they can have the blessed hope that I have that no matter when we separate in death, my husband and I will see each other again in heaven. I can't even imagine not having that hope. It would break me completely. Share LOVE and share CHRIST with someone today.

I sure hope God blesses me with 60 years with my hubbalicious <3

Finding humility in your most awkward place...

Every now and then as Christians or even in just every day life of humans, Christian or not, we start to become just going thru the motions. I've been doing that for a bit. I've been praying that thru all the stresses we've been dealing with lately that God would break my heart for Him and for people again. I get hard hearted. I'm not one of these people that is ok with showing my emotions in public. I HATE crying, in front of people especially. I guess I can be a bit of an ice queen. I'm not really...I just don't feel comfortable showing my emotions.

My husband and I have been singing together for a while now. Im starting to get a little more at ease, but I still find that the most awkward place for me to be is on stage, in front of people(I know, some of you are probably shocked by that). My nerves take over. I can't breathe right, I shake, I get really hot. But I do it, because I feel like God gave me somewhat of a talent and if I don't use it for Him, I'll lose it. Leave it to my Big Daddy to teach me humility -on stage- of all places. There is one song we sing that is our easiest. I know it the best, I sing it the best, and I could honestly sing it in my sleep most of the time. But yesterday, I truly felt that song. My ears don't always hear the words, but yesterday my heart heard them. I feel refreshed even though I had a bit of a breakdown. I felt the Lord breaking my heart for Him. Im grateful for it. So I guess for that moment, and today too, this is my heartsong...

Thank you, Lord for filling my soul!



Lyrics

Sometimes at night
I am afraid
I cover my eyes,
Cover my shame
So here in the dark
Broken apart
Come with your light
And fill up my heart

Oh great light of the world
Fill up my soul
I’m half a man here
So come make me whole
Oh great light of the world
Come to impart
The light of your grace
To fill up my heart

The wind of this world
Can push us around
Folding us up
Backing us down
But here in the dark
I’m not alone
So come with your strength
And carry me home

Oh great light of the world
Fill up my soul
I’m half a man here
So come make me whole
Oh great light of the world
Come to impart
The light of your grace

Oh great light of the world
Fill up my soul
I’m half a man here
So come make me whole
Oh great light of the world
Come to impart
The light of your grace
To fill up my heart

The light of your grace
To fill up my heart